About Christianity

if there is any time of the day i like the most, it would be the night. late into the night. midnight. although it is technically morning. and if there is any part of the day i hate the most, it is the period just before the sun rises. i like the night because it is quiet, and i like the peace. as to why i don't like the time before daybreak, because of the smell i guess. that time usually have a certain smell in the air. it is a refreshing smell, but that smell also reminds me of something i hate.

both night and before daybreak are very similar. but yet are not the same. i can like one and hate the other. similarly in life, there are paths which are very close to one another, yet not the same, and we cannot go to the other path. one very obvious example - the chessboard. bishops can only move on one color of the squares. even if the other square is just beside it, they still cannot go over. because that is the rule.

many people compare life to chessboard. and they always refer themselves to either the pieces or the player. in fact i would like to think we are all pieces. not that someone is playing us, but that we are pieces of the board that have a will of our own.

in life, there are paths we can go, and there are those we cannot go, no matter how much we try. a person who lost the chance to train can never train to become a world-class gymnast when she grew older. a blind person can never be a professional painter. a person who lost both his hands can never be a doctor. the list goes on.

or maybe, we are like the pawns. we are so small, so insignificant. if we are gone, nobody cares, because it is as if we make no impact on the overall situation. we look at the others, the much stronger people out there, the more successful people on the board - the knights, the castles, the Queens. and maybe we thought, we can never be like them.

and sometimes we thought of that, and thought of the road we can never walk, no matter how much we wish to, we just lost motivation to go forwards. maybe to move ahead one square is within our limits. and maybe, we are given enough opportunity to do so. but, we don't. even if we can. why? because we see no point, and therefore we lost our motivation. because no matter how we move, we cannot get to the place we want.

and then we know, that if we stay at that spot, sooner or later we are going to regret. while everyone is moving, we are stagnant. even though when we know we are going to get 'eaten' (well think of the consequences if you don't work hard), we still do not move. is there any difference between being eaten sooner or being eaten later? maybe not. maybe there is. who knows?

you see, in chess, Queens do fall. in chess, as long as the pawn gets to the end of the board, the pawn can become a Queen, become a castle, a bishop. anything. anything except the King. well, the idea is, don't pretend to be God.

the difference between getting eaten sooner or later is that while you try, maybe you will meet other pieces that will aid you in your move forwards. and then one day you too can be successful after all the hard work you put in. nobody can say for sure the pawn will reach the end. nobody knows. but if you try, there is hope. if you don't, that's the end of you. it is cliche, i know. but cliches usually are true. that's why it is used so often it became a cliche.

we are only a pawn in the chessboard. somebody else is born a castle. somebody else the bishop. maybe one or two born the Queen. and the rest of us, the pawns. most of us have to work on our own. most of us do not live a very very luxurious life. everyone is working towards the goal.

if one day you find really no point in moving forwads, turn to God for help. i guess if He makes you a pawn, He will give you what is needed for you to move on. i know that, having experienced that personally. still i can say, knowing and doing are totally 2 different things. God can give you the resources and the opportunities, but ultimately no one can force you if you don't want to move. afterall, God gives us all these pieces a freewill.

and who says pawns are no use? just like a great chess player can use a pawn effectively to win the whole game, God can use us effectively for His plan. we are created with a purpose, to fit into His plan. all we need to do is to listen to Him. we are just pawns, so if we don't listen to Him the impact is nothing. just like a chess player would not mind losing a pawn, that same chess player can use a pawn to turn the tide of the game. God doesn't need us. no one is indispensible. but if we allow it, the pawn that is us can be used to do big things.

so, as we move along the chessboard, allow God to guide us. He can use us effectively to do big things, and He can guide us all the way to the end so that we can stop being a pawn and be someone more successful. of course i cannot tell you that you will definately do big things or be successful. everyone is different. everyone is created for a different reason. but at the end of the day, if you can accomplish what you were made for, then your life would not be in vain right?

so don't lose hope, because if we allow it, the one who moves us is God. and if He wants, we can go all the way to the end, to be a Queen, a castle, a knight...etc.

even a pawn has value. and even a pawn can do big things. so, don't be discouraged. trust in God.

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no wonder i am such a hypocrite. i say things that i don't even plan on doing. so all of you move on, while i stay behind.