About Christianity

'i was always ahead of everyone. (but now) i am like a speeding car which crashed into the river because of a malfunctioning brake.'

'are you struggling to get out?'

'yeah. but now i am slowly sinking, waiting to be submerged.'

'then you have to sink all the way down.'

'what?'

'when the car reaches the bottom, the pressure inside and outside the car will be the same. then you will be able to open the door. most people do not like that feeling, but reaching the bottom may represent a new beginning.'

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in the road of life, everyone, or maybe i should say, most of us would want to run forwards. however, running forwards is not enough. running faster than others, staying in front of others so that they could not catch up to us... maybe that is what we all aim for, at least, at one time of our lives.

it is good to achieve something in our life. it is good to have ambition. it is good to run forwards. afterall, we want to make the most out of our lives. there is nothing wrong in that. however, sometimes we are too engrossed in running forwards that we forgot the things that are important to us. we forgot why we want to run forwards. the means (running) to reach the goal (whatever your aim is) may eventually blind us such that we end up caring only about running.

and at one point or another, you would have crashed. a speeding car is bound to crash. like that person, he crashed because of a faulty brake. because we are speeding, we sometimes removed all kinds of restrictions on ourselves. we don't care what happens, we want to go forwards. and that, will cause us to crash one day. or maybe, God purposely wants us to crash. who knows?

the problem with a speeding car is, when it crashed, it crashed real hard.

just like in another story i read, one guy died in battle.

his teammate commented about his death in this manner, 'he was always perfect. but to be successful, you have to fail first.'

no one on earth can run without falling. no one that i know of. just that, most of us try to hide it as best as we can, excluding those irritating attention seeking people. everyone falls, and everyone sinks into the river. maybe, if it is easy enough, we need not sink to the bottom. maybe we sink a little bit. and maybe, we sink all the way down. part of the reason would be the speed you are running. i cannot say for sure, but i think (disclaimer: i think. this is not a fact) the faster we were running, the deeper God would want to sink us.

and now, humans will struggle. we want to get back on our feet. for those who can, give thanks to God. for those who can't, i suppose you are also one of those who sink right down to the bottom. and sometimes not the kind where you sink right down. it is the kind where you slowly wait and be submerged, because there is nothing you can do about it. life is like that, huh?

haax for a person living for only 21 years, i talk as if i know everything.

but like what was said, sometimes, there is no choice but to sink right to the bottom, where the pressure inside and outside the car is the same. simply put, sinking right to the bottom would provide the condition God want us to be in. maybe He wanted us to remember Him. maybe He wanted us to be humble, or notice the things important for us.

sometimes, we are speeding fast, and speeding well. the only problem is, we are speeding in the wrong direction. or maybe, we lost track of why we are running. and then God gives us a wake-up call. and when we sink right down to the bottom, maybe it would achieve the effect in us God wants to have. as far as i know, if God sinks us, He will pick us up. it is just, a matter of time, and on our part, whether we have given up struggling.

everyone struggles. and maybe for me, my little struggle which is of no significance is already giving me problems. even for my own little problem, sometimes i think the world doesn't understand. it must have something to do with the mental state of someone in a mess. everyone in a mess thinks the world doesn't understand, because we focus too much on ourselves. and in my 21 years of life, God always pull me up. of course, i would have to work to grab His hand, to move my feet to propel myself. we have to work.

i cannot say i have reached the rock bottom of my life. but i can say i sink just a little bit. so, if you are sinking now, or in the future, or maybe you are at the bottom now, just remember, sometimes to come out again, we need to hit the rock bottom. and then, God will provide us a way out when all the conditions have been met.

remember: when the car reaches the bottom, the pressure inside and outside the car will be the same. then you will be able to open the door. most people do not like that feeling, but reaching the bottom may represent a new beginning.

i hope and wish that you will be able to come up again and embrace the new beginning. for now, don't give up, and trust God.