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i am a fan of 3 singers - mizuki nana, otsuka ai, and yui. when i look at them, i cannot help but think they are successful at a young age. ai-chan released her first album at age 22, mizuki nana was 18 when she became a seiyuu (voice actress/actor) and released her first single at 20, and yui is the youngest, releasing her first album at 17. kitade nana released hers at 16. i am not a fan of her (kitade nana) but i listen to her songs. for your info, both yui and kitade nana are the same age as me, well older than me by a few months. if you want to talk about money, the founder of facebook is worth billions at such a young age. people became famous sports stars too at around my age. and there are people who can take a cambridge examination at an age when i was still learning the concept of fraction.

i look at my idols (well the term should be idols because i am their fan, but they are not the kind of statues which i bow and worship at) and think, they became so popular and successful at that age, with so many supporters. not that i ask for popularity, i am and always will be the low-profile type nobody knows. but i think, at that age, they have worked for and got their success. and what am i doing? struggling to pass my exams. trying to earn some money to pay off my school fees. worrying about failing. worrying about not enough money to pay school fees. what am i doing? meaningless. everything seemed so meaningless.

i look at them and i look at me. what a big difference. at my age, they are already successful, except for otsuka ai, well she debuted at 22, but i am already 21 this year. but all of them are doing very well now. no, i am not saying i want popularity like them. but any idiot can look and tell the difference between us. same age, yet so different. sometimes i feel i am a failure. what have i been doing? is there anything constructive i have done in my past 21 years of life? nothing really much. the world can live without me. not that the world will collapse if my all time favorite mizuki nana dies off right now.

what about you? are you doing anything constructive? are you just wasting your life away? there are people who are successful and those who are not. i keep telling myself, and i am going to tell you what i think now. God has placed us and assigned us different roles. some are assigned to be presidents, some are given the talent and looks (yes, looks) to be superstars, others are given the interests to be big bankers. what about you? what about me? maybe we won't be big. small fries. commoners. well, but we still can be successful in our own areas assigned to us. in the end, will we be lazy and give up? or will we do our job properly? yes, i told myself that God did not place me to be a superstar. i know what i have to do. do you?

yet when i look at my favorite singers, i cannot help but feel a sense of inferiority sometimes. yes this is the wrong feeling. but you just get that kind of thoughts sometimes. not that i can help it. you too. maybe you will feel that way. no, you definitely felt that way before. but remember, you have your own area. in your own area, you too can be successful in a way no other people can do it. you can be successful at a young age. even if you are old now, there is still time. ultimately, God will judge you, not humans. maybe the commoner down the street did a better job in his own area than mizuki nana in her own area.

nana-chan come to my country and hold a concert. please. at least sell your albums here. my darn country don't have a single piece of your album. they sell everything from hamasaki ayumi to koda kumi but NOT your album....why?!!??