About Christianity

my friend told me once, 'besides iraq, the office is the world's second war zone.' in a way he makes sense. the office, is a very unhealthy place. there are all kinds of people inside. people love to play office politics, backstab each other and do all sorts of nonsense. i started working since i was 17, and had been to quite a few places to work. hahax i always jump from job to job. i have worked in a bar, as a sales-person, as a pilot assistant, as an office worker doing finance and then shifted to marketing, as a tuition teacher... etc.

the office is really one place of a war zone. maybe you would think i am naive, maybe you would think i have not enough experiences. but i think, everybody are working to earn some money. at the end of the day, we just want the money. or it is the case for me. why is there a need to play politics inside the workplace? is there a need to backstab each other?

of course, i have seen people blatantly cursing and swearing behind your back and can smile in front of you. hypocrites. many are like that. maybe i am like that too. there are others who can put arrows behind your back and be a friend to you in front. there are many nonsense inside.

sometimes, to be a good christian inside an office requires really a lot of effort. maybe, or definately, we would need to pray for God to give us strength and wisdom to survive inside in the most Christ-like manner we could. sometimes i would also really like to put a knife behind people's back. but i know, one day who i am accountable to. one day i would have to give an account of my life. not that i am holy. you could say i am afraid of punishments. but then, who knows? one day i might lose control of myself. am i emo-ing today? i hope not.

i remembered i once told a friend who could not get along with others because they had some biasness against her. she was very upset about it. i told her, that that may be a way for her to show her christian faith, a way to display christianity. be kind to others. who knows? it may be God who put you there, so you could show to others how a christian would act. she said she was encouraged by me.

when i was doing my own stuffs thinking about the office matters, suddenly that memory of me and my friend who was upset appeared. as if The Holy Spirit is telling me to remember what i was saying. that words i encouraged my friend with, now came back to me. maybe, i should show my christian way of life. in a world of sin, the christian faith would shine brighter.

sometimes i really feel like a hypocrite, in a different manner from those (i really want to use a swear word here) people in the office. i always do not do what i preach. hahax if you noticed, i kept using the word 'hypocrites' recently in my post. you know, for some reason, i felt like i suddenly could see people in a way i never saw before.

suddenly, i begin to see what hypocrisy people had. it was like i had a revelation and an insight to people's actions. maybe this insight was given to me so i would not be like them, and help people understand their own situation, not to be a hypocrite. like what i am doing now, writing to say what kind of things people do. so if you are one of the hypocrites, please change it. one day, we have to explain what we did with our lives. i know i don't want to fail.

for now, i am totally ignoring some of the people in the office, and do not talk to them unless absolutely neccessary. but even so, it did not make me less of a target board for arrows. maybe my forehead had the 2 words 'shoot me'. not that they did not shoot other people.

but if you happen to be like me, keep one thing in mind. that is your goal. your goal is to work and earn money. just keep that in mind. like going to heaven is your goal, do not let other things distract you. with that goal in mind, things become much easier. or maybe, i have not suffered the worst yet. always remember why you go to work, and not let other things distract you. most importantly, do not join those self-important hypocrites.

am i flaming my colleagues?