About Christianity

looking back is something all humans had done. well i don't know whether Jesus had done it. i am referring to all normal humans, like you and me. looking back, in this case does not mean thinking back to the old days where you were having fun or when you were suffering. looking back here means wanting to go back to the past, or maybe, wondering how it would be like if you did not take the road you are walking now.

as long as we are humans, we do make choices. for some of us, we have a lot of free choices we can make. for some of us, we are in situations where choices are not that much available to us. but whatever we do, we make choices. the simplest thing to choose, is the choice to live. the fact that you are here now, reading this post, simply means that for now you have at least made the choice to live. or maybe you can choose now whether to continue reading this post or not.

in my life, and i am sure for you too, there will be big choices that we have to make. getting married, choosing a job, deciding which house to buy, planning for a family. these are all big choices, at least for me. for some of the choices, the consequences are not that big. for some, it is very big. and a lot of times, we do not know what to do. despite given a choice, we don't know what to choose.

some of us decide to listen to people for advice. some of us have our choices determined by others. such as a boy or a girl would go to the school his or her parents decided. some of us would ask God to decide for us. the rest, well i guess it is either you make your own choice or you let the circumstances or 'fate' take you.

but as we walk along the road that we chose, inevitably there will be some problems in our lives. maybe it is a few, maybe it is many. some may be small problems, others may be a disaster. then we begin to think, what if, what if that day were to repeat and we choose the other road? what would have happened? maybe we would be more successful. or maybe we would be richer.

if you choose the road you regret now based on human wisdom or just 'fate', then i guess your wisdoms or the so-called 'fate' of yours is a bit wrong. if we listen to God, then i guess i can say something.

you know, when we let God decides, we are telling Him that He knows everything and we trust Him. at that time, i am sure He did not promise everything would be smooth sailing. i guess He probably only told you it would be the best for you. however we know that there is no free lunch in this world. to have something you have to work for it. so to get the success along that road, most probably you would suffer a little bit. well, the love and grace God gives you are free (but by no means cheap). you know what i am talking about, i hope.

we look back. yes. we think if at that time we did not listen to God, what would happen? the israelites thought of the same thing too when they got out of egypt. you know, the thing is, even if you look back, it is too late to do anything now. the chance is gone. the past is over. and it is the present now. what we have to be concerned about is the present and the future.

i know that God knows the future. and you know that too. just that sometimes maybe it is really difficult to walk down that road. so far, among all the decisions i had let God chose for me, i dare say i have not regretted even once.

true, sometimes i do think back and wonder. but to me, it is just for amusement. even when i am not in a very happy state, i don't want to think for real what if i had chosen another road. because, the reasons are simple.

1. i don't want to lose faith in God.
2. if the best road God chose for me is already this hard, what will happen if i don't listen to Him?
3. there is no point (like i said above)
4. thinking back will only make you lose confidence in the present and all motivation to work.

of course when i said i did think back, i thought it in a way like just for fun. i am not serious in regretting this road i have chosen. or maybe, i should say, in all my happy life i have not walked down a road hard enough for me to think that way.

you know, you have trusted God to make a decision for you. and you have walked down the path for a period of time, i assume? since you have walked it for quite some time, why not let God bring you through the rest of the path? you may not know where it leads to, but as long as the one in control knows, then i guess it is all right. at least for me, it is all right.

looking back for fun is ok, but seriously regretting choosing God's way is not. if we do this, we are doubting Him, or maybe we are blaming Him for giving us such a hard life. i think, that is not a very good thing. if we are in a mess, we should just ask for more help. that's all. have faith. if that is not enough, ask for more faith. keep asking, keep praying, until you get enough strength and faith for you to walk down that path.

ok now, i have to continue walking this path that God chose for me. i am going to study for a test, then i will think of a way to increase my income. i don't even know why i am doing all these. but since God chose it, i should just walk. that's all.

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