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Even though fate is fleeting
As long as you live
Life goes on
Eternally
To anywhere, as long as you're strong

Though I may die
As long as you live
Life goes on
Eternally
Continues to anywhere, as long as you're strong

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is it nice? the above. well not written by me though. the woman, even when she was dying, was telling the man to have hope. to continue on living even when she is not around.

i had made a post before on the sudden death or departure (not neccessary death) of someone (see The Last Time He Saw Her). sometimes, fate is fleeting. well, fate. some believe, some do not. i don't believe fate controls everything though. maybe you can call it God's plan, luck, co-incidence, destiny... it mean the same darn thing. something beyond your control. to simplify it, we call it fate, since it fits in with the story as well.

as we all know, people do die. obviously. sometimes they die early, sometimes they die late. sometimes it is others who die, sometimes it is us. well, doesn't matter. someone is going. it is one thing to die, it is another to leave a heartbroken person behind. well, if you die and no one is sad, i guess you better start reflecting on your life.

haha i have discovered a contradiction. if you die and nobody is sad, then it doesn't really reflect well on you. but if you are a good guy and you die, people are sad for you. but then you wouldn't want people to be sad for you. oh well. this paragraph only serves to point out this irony.

you see, if we die, people do get sad. family, friends, lovers, children...etc. sometimes people cannot take it well. sometimes people cannot move on at the death of a loved one. it is not strange, right? especially if it is a sudden or horrible death. 911 incident, murder...etc. unexpected deaths. people usually find it harder to move on in such a case.

as long as you live, life goes on, eternally. to anywhere, as long as you are strong.

this woman, even when she was dying, was trying to console the man, and help him move on. even though she might die, she knew that the man's time was not up yet. she could not be with him, and he had to be alone. yet, life goes on.

literally, life goes on as long as the heart continues pumping. the brain may be dead, but as long as the heart is working, medically, you are living. but, living without a purpose, living in the past, living in grief, it is not really living. that's why the woman said, 'life goes on, eternally, to anywhere, as long as you are strong.'

as long as he is strong enough to stand, life goes on. he is not a living dead. a human with a path in front of him. he may be sad, but he can continue walking. as long as he is strong, life goes on, until it is his time to go. well the fact about life going on eternally in this case is exaggerated. since it is not reality. well eternal life do exist in heaven though.

both these 2 characters are very admirable aren't they. the guy is so much in love with the woman that he won't be able to go on as long as she died. but at the same time the woman knew, and asked him to move on. a selfless love, a sincere love and a genuine love. what am i saying? i think at 0100h in the morning my thinking is a bit messed.

*points at the clock* blame the time, not my incompetence at critical thinking at such a weird time.

back to the topic. a person's death is not end of the world. well maybe in a certain sense to you it is the end of the world. but you are still alive. and you are not dead. (they mean the same thing don't they? blame the time.)

it may be very hard to get up. so if you know someone who needs to get up, why not lend him a helping hand? if you are alone and you cannot get up, why not ask God for help? although He is our God, and our Lord, we can actually ask Him for help. because He is one who cares for us. if we are sad, He is sad. maybe, sometimes the way a person died made you wonder if there really is a God. this, i don't know how to say it to you. because i didn't lose anyone is a tragic manner that i would doubt God. but while i am still in this blissfully ignorant state, i can tell you that there is a God. maybe one day, if i doubt God, then i would need you to remind me of the same thing i am reminding you today.

life moves on. because she loves him, she didn't want him to be so sad he could not go forwards. similarly, you too right? if you die, you wouldn't want the ones who love you be so sad they could not move on. so, if you are the one living, you can be also sure the one who died wouldn't want you to be in such a state of grief for so long. because she loves you, and wouldn't want you to be like that. so, stand up and move forwards. and as you move forwards, you can take her memories together with you. as long as you remember her, she will always be there. at least, for once in your life, you have someone whom you love deeply. and for that, you have experienced the greatest human emotion of all.

so stand up. as long as you are strong, life goes on. to anywhere (well not neccessary true). even though fate is fleeting, but that period of short happiness would accompany you till the day you die. so, don't cry anymore. the road is still ahead of you. so, walk that road, walk forwards. just like the way she wanted you to.

i just finished my exams. like i said, i always have the habit of cramping everything in the last minute. the result of it is that i spent the last 3 months studying like crazy. ok so the exams ended. i finally can enjoy life. in fact i am enjoying it. although i still have to work in the day, i felt relieved that i do not need to take out my notes and memorize the words written on it when i went back to my room after a long day at work. yes, i am quite happy with the way i am.

many people have different plans after exams. playing games, clubbing, shopping, learn something new, go out, work etc. many things. everybody does different things. but whatever the case, we can say that almost all of us enjoy ourselves. i am referring to people like me, a normal human living in a normal and blessed condition. yes i admit i am blessed. back to what i was saying, we all have different defintions of enjoying life.

i got a friend, who recently disappeared on the cyberworld and appeared less often. reason? life offline is more constructive than life online. as we all finish our exams, we have the next thing to ask. we are still young, what should we do so that we will not waste our life away? of course to do something constructive. but what is a constructive life? shopping? playing? learning? no i am not criticizing what people do. if you think by shopping you can be happy, go ahead. i play games too. but then, enjoying life and a constuctive life is different, and a constructive life is different from a purposeful life.

you may play games, but it may not constructive. you may take up a new course to learn something, but that may not be purposeful. we only live life once. when we die, what do you hope to achieve? that i achived a level 100 in a mmorpg game? or i got 20 degrees in university? of course, i am not condemning that. who knows? maybe your level 100 is your purpose in life. everyone has a different purpose that she or he understands and set out to do. who am i to judge? but i am saying, on your deathbed, or years later when you look back, do you want to regret spending your youth on something meaningless?

for me, i play too. and i know games are pointless. i don't play a lot now. i know my purpose. and my purpose is writing stories ( i am posting it up starting on 15 june 2008 though, on my website ). is it strange? maybe to you it is. to me it is not. you might think it is pointless to write a story just like how i think playing a game has no purpose at all. of course, the purpose is given to us by God, and He will know what to do with it, including if your life mission is to do something really pointless in a human's point of view.

now that i have free time, i am able to think in a relaxed way. of course i still play game. you don't expect a human to only work and not play. what i am trying to say is, are you spending your time in such a way and for a purpose that you will smile and be proud of years later, or will you waste your life on enjoyable things but will achieve nothing in the end?