About Christianity

'i... forgot when it started... without realizing it, i tried my best to walk a different path from others. ah, the road i am referring to is not the normal road. it refers to the directional or goal-oriented kind. just like the way of life.'

'oh.'

'so i will try to prevent walking the same road as others (before it happens), then naturally my experiences will be different from others. because everyone's choices are mostly boring stuffs. why do they want to make such a boring choice, i really don't understand a single bit. and therefore, i found out one thing. if from the start i make a different choice from most people, usually there will be very interesting things waiting for me to explore.'

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i said quite a few times in my posts, maybe more than a few times... enough times to make you sick of listening, that actually living a normal life is a bliss. and i have given you more than enough examples why some people would be willing to go through our sufferings 10 times over only to live the life we are living now - a normal life.

but among those of us who live a normal life, there are some who want to do something different in our normal lives. true, living a normal life may be a bliss. but if everyone goes to school, work, get married, have a family, die, then, should i do the same thing? perhaps this is the normal life. but if i do that, then who am i? just another digit in the office of statistics? or maybe just another insignificant human in this whole wide world?

maybe you agree living a normal life is good. but you don't want it to be too normal. contradicting, right? i think, the words of the opening scene above are what described most of us.

but the thing is, we can never escape from the path the majority of the human population walks. no matter how much you try to deviate away, we will always end up doing the same things as the others. this, comes from my very own experience. because i too, once tried to take a very different path from the others.

we can be a little different, or very different. but it doesn't change the fact we are running at the same place. just like a stadium track have 8 lanes, you might be running in lane 1, and me in lane 8. but in the end, we are still running in the same track at the stadium. i can even run the opposite direction. it doesn't make much of a difference. that is all.

and the problem is when you realized this very fact, maybe you will start to ask yourself, 'what the hell am i doing?' you found out that, maybe, you cannot answer yourself the question. did i say that in my last post? maybe i did. i am too lazy to check it.

no matter how different we are, it doesn't change the fact we need to study, get as good a result as we can, go out to work, earn as much as we can... etc. and finally, we all need to die. the same road we are taking.

if you dig deep enough, you may realize that what you actually want, is just simply to be different from others. not in anything, but in your experience. there is no fun doing what all the others are doing. is that true? to me, that is true. i hate crowds, and i hate to go to where everyone is going, literally and analogically (is there such a word?). if i can be a lane different from the others, i want to be in that lane.

and then you realize from our perspective, we can never be much different. but maybe, you can be somewhat different in the eyes of God. not that you are more important, or less important. not that He loves you more than the others, or loves you less. it is just, we are all special in His eyes. it doesn't matter which lane you are running, as long as you are running in His track.

maybe, there is a thing He wants you to do. and out of the so many people, only you can do it. not because you are very good at it, but maybe because He made you suitable to do it. of course, if we don't do it, there will be others God will send to do it. but you know, this is a chance for you to be different. maybe, in the eyes of humans, you are still just another person. but to God, you are different from the others.

maybe one day He will say, 'pencil-leads, you did the job i gave you, the thing only you could do at that time.' maybe, He will say that to me, or to you. i think, by default, we are all different in His eyes. but that isn't enough. being different is one thing, experiencing different things is another thing. i may be different, and i know i am. but the problem is, i don't want to experience the same thing every other person did.

then, God can also provide that for you. as all christians believe, we are all born with a different purpose in our lives. for some it is to teach, some to give, others to sing, and yet some to write... etc. the list never ends, at least in my limited knowledge. a path specially for us. maybe some other people will run alongside us. but that path we run, is futher divided into sub-lanes. a lane only for us. a lane which no others can run. a lane which only we can experience. it may be a bit similar to others. but it is not the same as others.

then if you follow God, there is no need to try to walk a different path from others. because He has specially prepared a path for you. it is a path, where you will experience things you won't regret. you have your path, and i have my path. so, if you are willing, ask God to show you that path. and then you can walk it. walk a path of normal life, yet different from others. lastly, it will be a path with many interesting things waiting for you to explore.