About Christianity

'the process of falling down is actually much more scarier than the state of being fallen.'

the above is really what i thought. it did not come from any story, not that i know of. it is just, this idea popped into my mind.

every human started from nothing. and from nothing we work our way up, whether with or without help from other humans, but definately with help from God. and then we climb up as high as possible, and maybe along the way we see all the others slowly falling off one by one. of course along the way, we will meet more and more capable people who are still climbing.

all that goes up must come down. it is the common sense law of the people. it did not apply in physics and in the law of gravity only, it also applies to us humans' successes. i guess one cannot keep on climbing up without failure. students try to study to aim for the top, workers try to get promoted, bosses try to expand their business...etc. everyone is working, and for every success there are many other failures.

i recently made a post about trusting God in all things, that He will give you peace if you trust Him. i think that's what i wrote. i am too lazy to go back and check. there is another situation i did not say, which is the reason why i am writing this now.

sometimes as we all know, failure is not immediate. sometimes it is a gradual process. how to say... it is like seeing yourself beginning to fail, to fall away, while you yourself cannot do anything about it. you begin to see other people succeed, and you yourself losing more and more things from your failure. so maybe you would want to say, you trusted God, and still you see yourself falling.

maybe if you are just given one big blow and you fell straight from the top, things might get better. because even in that state, it is still better than to see yourself losing and failing little by little. because the reason why falling is so scary is, you have no idea how much more you are going to lose. you have no idea how much more screwed or messed up your life is going to be. and the worst thing is, there is no one around who can help you. did i just accurately described what some of you felt at a certain point of time or another? if you haven't met with this kind of situation before, don't worry. your turn will come.

you would want peace, and maybe you did feel peace for that day after assurance from God. but after that, you find yourself getting hit in the face once more by failure. it is this impending doom you cannot avoid no matter how hard you try. so, how do you have peace? i seriously have no idea. because i am just 21, i don't have much experience. i don't have much failures to learn my lessons from. i only know someone who has more experience than anyone, more wise than anyone, and more capable than anyone. and He is God.

if i have to say something to console you (even if it totally doesn't work on myself), maybe i would tell another real life story.

i worked in quite a few places, and met quite a few people. all the people have a different story to tell. this is a story (or rather a comment) told by my superior, a middle-aged man who did not have much opportunities left compared to a younger person.

he said, 'when i was young, i tried very hard to climb up the ladder. i climbed and climbed, and when finally i reached the top, i realized the ladder leaned on the wrong wall.'

do you get what he meant? he is one of those who succeeded in what he did. but after getting success, he realized that what he got was not what he wanted. i thought, among all the stories told by my fellow colleagues, his was the most i could learn from.

failure, something not accepted by most of the people. and something almost condemned by the rest. nobody associates with losers, because they cannot gain anything from losers. but maybe, the act of falling down slowly but surely is God's own way to tell us not to be proud when we succeed next time, that for all those who fail, we are to show them compassion, because we know how it feels like. or maybe, we fail because He knew our ladder leaned on the wrong wall, and in His love and concern for us, He is dragging us down now so that we won't waste any more time climbing the ladder which we will later regret.

if this is any consolation to you who failed, then i think this post is not in vain. i hope, to those who fail, you will gain success one day, but still be humble and show compassion to those who fail. and most importantly, be grateful to God for the time He dragged you down.

of course, all these are my opinions. i have no idea what God is thinking when you failed, because i am not Him. i can only merely guess... you yourself should know the reason why you fail...