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'even so, i love you.'

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this is what a guy said to another girl, despite the girl being 'unworthy' of his love. with just 5 simple words, the guy had expressed his deep love for the woman he wanted to be with.

the 3 words 'i love you' are easy to say. but add the 2 words in front 'even so', and many people cannot do it. funny how sometimes this is the extent of our love for others. i thought sometimes it is even easier to come up with the world's most flowery language than to add that 2 simple words in front.

i thought about the range of love a human could have. starting from lust superficial love, to normal love, to loving a person more important than your life etc...they are all variations of love. but dont you think sometimes these kind of love are still in a way...superficial sometimes? note i don't say all the time. just well... sometimes. or maybe a bit more often than sometimes.

we always love people when they are healthy, when they are well and everything is fine. but say your lover or whomever important to you is disabled, or maybe did something very wrong, or whatever you think of, we don't love the person anymore. or maybe we can even find her/him irritating. say if your parents get very sick and cannot take care of themselves anymore. say your boyfriend got involved in a car accident and got paralyzed. say your girlfriend gave birth to a child before she met you, or that she got raped. say your siblings got into (a very big) trouble (maybe lose a lot of money in the stock market?) and need your help.

at these times, what becomes of our love? i am not very experienced. but i observe people sometimes. and sometimes that's the end of their love. funny isn't it? i love you. only when you are healthy and well and when i enjoy being with you. yet when you have to bother me and i get no benefits from it, that's the end of our love. my love only extends up to the point where i don't need to give too much.

sometimes i think about it, and i am amused and at the same time appalled by the extent of our love. is that called love? i don't know. maybe superficial love, i guess. well i am not saying all humans are like that. don't get me wrong. but we all know there are many humans like that. will i be like that? i don't know. but i hope not.

'even so, i love you.' to me, saying these few words in the most messed up situation is much more beautiful than saying 'i love you' under the most romantic of conditions. well of course this applies to family and friends as well though. 'even so' implies that you didn't mind the past, or whatever problem the person has. because who you love is the person him/herself. of course it doesn't mean if the person you love is a drug addict you would tolerate him and continue to support his addiction.

we all have people whom we love. but that is because maybe they are healthy and well now? have you ever asked yourself, how deep is your love for that person? a little deep? very deep? this is a very hard question to answer isn't it? we always thought we know the extent of our love for a person, until when the test comes. and when that time comes, that 5 simple words becomes so hard to say. well, for you, only you know how much you love the other person.

even in marriage, when the vows were exchanged and you promised to be with each other through thick and thin, till death do you part, the vows sometimes are just taken as lightly as saying 'i do' when the person at the counter asked you if you want a cheeseburger. i am not going to talk about divorce, but don't you think it is amazing how people can forget their love so easily? a love that wants to be with each other till death gets burnt out over maybe quarrels, or something. of course there are valid reasons, such as adultery, home abuse, but not all the people are like that, right?

love is something... nice. amazing. whatever you call it. true love, that is. not lust. not superficial love. a sincere, genuine love.

today, if you ask yourself, of all the people you love, to how many of them can you say these words, 'even so, i love you.'?

i know God loves us. well they is no need to repeat myself again and again why we are not worthy of His love. but in the end, i know He still thinks, 'even so, i love you.'

so i thought, if you can honestly say to one whom you love that 5 simple words, then you have reached one of the most sincere and deepest love a human can go.