About Christianity

someday, moka and i will graduate from this academy. it's also possible that the human and monster worlds will become separated. that's why i decided to make as many happy memories as i can while i'm still here.

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well i guess i did not really say anything much about christianity in my last few posts. haax well i guess i should come back to the main theme of christianity, otherwise i will just stray more and more and this will end up being my personal diary reporting my daily life.

so, the guy, a human was enrolled into a monster academy by mistake, and all his classmates are monsters. but this human mixed in surprisingly well with some of the monsters. and so he got a group of very close friends, or you might say, a clique.

because that was school, he knew school would end one day. the path he took with his best friends was only a short one. one day, everyone would have to go their own routes. they might meet up again, and they might still be friends, but maybe not as close as before. not being together as much as before. so, he decided to enjoy his time, and create happy memories with his friends.

are you like that? i know that i have done that a few times. knowing one day everything will end, so that's why i tried to remember the happy times. if my brain cannot hold that much information, i write them down. well at least i used to. there is no need to tell you how to do it, as you might already have done it. the relationship with humans. many of us have different ways of handling it.

so i thought, today i will talk about the relationship with God. what is your relationship with Him? Him your genie and you the 'master'? God your Lord and you His servant? Father and child? Friend? well, i certainly hope you don't treat Him as a genie. although i sometimes make that mistake, like 'God i screwed up the exams but please let me pass!'

yes, for christians if we die we go to heaven, well obedient christians. you don't expect to sin as you like and expect to go to heaven right? but i thought, in my limited knowledge, understanding and wisdom, the relationship we have with God in heaven and on earth will be somehow different. you do understand right?

yes here we have trials and we live life as a sinful human. a weak human. someone made from dust, or cells. certainly our relationship here is different from when we go to heaven and live life as someone who passed the test. we are doing the test here, enjoying the rewards up above.

like the academy, our life here on earth is also a training ground. the academy prepare life as an adult. the earth prepare life in heaven. our life here on earth, like the academy, is only but for a short time. here, we have friends, we meet people, and we have God. and then, when the time is up, we have to go. where to? i hope heaven for you.

and for our time here, we have all kinds of memories. happy, sad, nice and bad memories. they are inevitable. well you could say life would be boring with only happy memories. only when we experienced ups and downs can we say we live life in a much more fulfilling way. of course, as usual, i am talking about normal ups, normal downs. those who got their family tortured to death in a war zone, those who have incurable disease at a young age.... you know, i guess i really cannot say anything. because i do not understand their pain, hence i am in no position to talk.

so, our walk with God on earth, well i guess it is like a normal relationship in some way. there are those who are disappointed with God, some are happy. some are sad why God did a certain thing, some are frustrated we don't see a way out of our life's mess...etc. basically, every single emotion you felt towards a human can be the same emotions you feel towards God. some even hate God. and i know people like that.

we keep the happy memories we have with others deep in our hearts. do we do that with God? i thought you should, although again i myself don't do it. well at least see what i have to say...hahax. God is like our friend too, and we walk with Him. just that we cannot see Him. but He is always there.

if we have a deep relationship with Him, i suppose we will feel all kinds of emotions too. so, we would have happy memories. happy memories with friends are important and we treasure them. what about happy memories with God? we should treasure them more right? i don't really have many happy memories with God, or maybe i did not carefully keep them in my hearts.

but in a relationship, memories are important. they are proof that you once walked with a person. that you once laughed with a person, cried for a person, angry at a person, frustrated at a person...etc. the same too. what is your proof with your relationship with God? not the Bible knowledge you have gathered. not the miracles you have experienced. not the prayers you did. i think these are all superficial. memories - they are the proof.

your walk here with God is short. and then you either go to heaven or go to hell. regardless it will be a different kind of relationship, i think. so, while you are here in this academy, before you graduate, collect as many happy memories as you can. and to do that, you need to build a close relationship with Him. and then one day if you are in heaven, i hope, you can take out all these happy memories and smile at them. because they are proof of that time you have with God, the time which although could never return back, will always remain in your heart.

i wish you all the best in collecting as many happy memories with your friends and God as possible. so that this walk in life will always remain in your heart and bring a smile to your face. time may continue to run towards eternity, but this frozen, special time will never decay (i don't suppose you will have memory decay in heaven, or when you write it down in a dairy on earth).

before his friend turned into sand, his friend asked him, 'so, what is your wish?'

'i just don't want to lose all these things. i only want, to take back all the happy memories of the past.'

and as he said that, all that was important to him turned into sand and disappeared.

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this teenage boy, in order to turn the current reality into something like the past, challenged 'god'. his past was that of a happy one, with friends around him, and had little troubles compared to his current situation. but as always, reality is not always beautiful. his important friends were gone, and all he had was a nightmarish reality and loneliness. he did all he could to go back to the past, to revert things back to the previous state. in the end, he challenged 'god'.

how many of us are like that? well, not to the extreme of challenging God. how many of us are stuck in the past, unable to look forwards?

life is beautiful sometimes, and ugly sometimes. if there is happiness, there is sadness. if there are ups, there are downs. success and failure. stress and relief. everyone experience the same thing - joy, grief, victory, loss..etc.

maybe, at your current stage of life, everything looks so bad. so bad you want to despair. so bad, like that boy, you think it is a nightmare. there is nothing in front for you to look forward to. whatever you do, you keep failing. and maybe, finally, you give up hope, and dare not hope anymore.

and when that happens, it is human tendency to look back to the past. to the past when everything was so beautiful. there are many reasons why we do that. maybe it is the only source of strength that lets us go on. maybe we want to go back to that state. maybe, just naturally, as if addicted by drugs, we cannot help but go back to the past where our memories are.

but, i thought, if we cannot let go of the past, we cannot move forwards. if we cannot let go of the past, we cannot face the reality now. in a way, it is like drugs. for a short moment, we thought it would help us go on. but in the long term, it actually makes us despair even more.

why do we still hold on to that past? because, it is very hard to let go. because, the reality we are facing now is too hard for us to bear.

sometimes i am like that too. even though i know i cannot keep on doing this anymore. like that boy, if we continue to do this, if we cannot let go of the past, whether by despair or by desperate attempts to return things to the original state, one day, we are going to lose every single thing important to us.

because, the past can never return to us. that is why, it is called the past.

we need to let go of the past. but letting go does not mean you have to forget them. the past is important. but if we cannot let go, we have no future, and our present is so dark we cannot move on.

talk is easy, right? i thought so. i only know how to talk, so i don't know what to do myself. but i thought, maybe i can introduce you someone who can help you. maybe, i thought, i would introduce you to my God.

if one day, or now, you find your present too dark to go on, your future too uncertain to move forwards, why not ask for help from my God? He knows the way, the past, the present, and the future. if the road is too dark, ask Him to light it up for you. if the future is too blur, ask Him to guide you. i cannot promise you the road He leads you will be smooth. but this i can promise you: He won't give you a road too hard for you to walk. this i can promise you: wherever He led you, there He will be with you too.

let go of your past, so your heart won't hurt anymore. so you can turn your head around, face the front and continue walking. i don't know how long you have to walk, but one day, you will be able to see the light. if you really cannot go on anymore, then ask God for help.

of course, as we walk, we sometimes do look back. i think, it is ok. as long as we don't reach out our hands and try to grab it and turn it to our reality. the past can never be the present.

but i think, maybe, from the present, like what the people in stories always do, we can tilt our head sideways a bit, smile and say to our past, 'i am glad i was there once. it really made me very happy.' or maybe, we can tilt our head sideways, smile and say to our friends, 'i am very happy i once walked this road with you.'

it won't be easy. but this, is the key for us to face the present, and to walk towards the future. so, turn back and smile. don't cry because the past is behind you. at least, you have a past you can look back to.

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fans may already know this - Mizuki Nana's dad passed away on 29th october 2008. it is on the news. anyway, my deepest condolences. her blog updates will be irregular for now though. for her blog entry on this issue, j1m0ne had done a translation of it on her website. http://atemonai.com/blog/mizuki-nana-on-her-fathers-passing/