About Christianity

'i don't know if this ending is fortunate or unfortunate (the term used here also has the meaning of 'happiness'), but i never regretted it. even when i became like this, he still let me stay by his side.'

these were the thoughts of a woman who abandoned her human form and was turned into a flame spirit when she died. after getting a fatal wound from the villian of the story, just before she died, she said, 'i don't want to be a pretty but short-lived flower. it does not matter if i am a bit uglier, if only i can always be with you.'

and her lover agreed and turn her into a flame spirit, which would later become a part of his power. in something like a 'contract' she burnt the face of her lover who indirectly but unintentionally caused her to lose her life. this woman would later go on and be known to the world as a horrifying but extremely strong power of the man.

yeapx, to those who know this story, and to those who did not, this story is a small part from 'flame of recca'. sorry i could not describe it properly... sometimes you really need to read the whole story yourself to get a better idea. (this is an excuse for my poor description)

so the once pretty woman, in order to be with her lover, stopped being a human and turned into a not so pretty flame spirit. the man, who also loved her, personally turned her into something non-human. i guess it wouldn't be very comforting to see someone you love become something else other than a human. this little story tells of the love between a couple and how much they were willing to go through in order to be with each other.

do you have someone you love? maybe your parents? family? spouse? lover? normal friends? i guess most of us have people who are important to us. but the thing is, how much do we love them? enough to die (i am not asking you to die)? how far are you prepared to go just to be with the one you love? or maybe, for those who have no one to love, and loved by no one, do you sometimes wish that you have someone to love? or someone to love you? i think we are all made to love and to be loved.

actually, in many senses (this sounds like stupid english), we are all like the woman.

like that woman, we have someone who loves us a lot. like how the man's love for her could not be matched by anyone else in the story, Jesus loves us more than anyone else in this world. even if the whole world dislikes you (for her it was fear), we are still loved, by the one person who matters to us most (by right He should matters most to you).

even when we became like this, He still keeps us by His side. we (the woman) used to be pretty, but as we grow older, we became more and more ugly. when we were kids and had a pure and innocent heart, we were beautiful. as we get more and more involved with the outside world, our hearts became corrupted and ugly. even so, even when we became like that, He loves us, enough to die for us so we can be at His side.

like how a 'convenant' or a 'contract' was exchanged when the man turned her into a flame spirit so she could continue to live on, we are also in a convenant with Christ when He shed His blood for us so we could live on. not in the sense to continue living on in this world, but to have life everlasting in heaven. the woman would later live within the man's body since her body was destroyed. what about us? sooner or later we would need to leave this world, or this world is going to be gone in due time. where would we live in? in heaven. we (the woman) were brought back to life so we can continue living.

the man had said, 'we will not be separated again, and be together forever.' can it be said of the same for us? i think it can, right? when we get to heaven, we can be together with the One who loves us the most, and the one we love the most (by right we should love Him the most).

those who know the story, you would have known that throughout the story the man had called out the woman many times to fight for him. you would also have known that the man did not need the woman in his fights, since other than his other skills, his original flame was not the woman. in the same way, God does not need us to carry out the work He gives us. nothing is impossible for Him, that's why He is God.

but why then, like the man, He choose to call us to work for Him? i guess (since i have no concrete proof), that in the same way the man wanted his beloved to fight and win together with him, our Lord wants us to work and to walk together with Him. when we work, we are depending on God, and we get closer and closer to Him.

many people were fearful of the man and the woman, because with undeniable strength and power they had won every single fight (at that point of the story). the woman was recognized as his power. and as we fight (the sins) and win (the sins, as well as the people whom we won over), people are able to see we too, like the woman, represent Christ in this world. like how the people recognized her as his power, we can also be seen as salt and light of the world, just as how we are supposed to be.

when the woman was killed, the impact on him was great. he began to hate the world and the people in it. when we know that Christ died, are we greatly affected? i don't mean to ask you to hate the world or act like some drama series where you have to cry or something. i mean, because He died for us, do you feel amazed? or that now you are actively trying to love others (even our enemies) because He loved us enough to die? most of the time, or practically all of the time, we treated this piece of information with as much importance as the weather forecast. i admit i am like that too. do we love people now with the same intensity as the man hated the world?

life is full of troubles. and sometimes we hear inspiring stories that motivates us. but we all know that during the making of an inspiring story, the process of actually going through it is not fun and enjoyable at all. sometimes it is so bad we want to give up, to lose hope, to not care about it anymore. but like how the man and the woman can win every single fight together, we too, can win together with the Lord.

'but i never regretted it.' the woman never regretted her decisions. sometimes there are people who regretted being a christian. life is hard sometimes right? i really have no proper advice to give to those who think that way. but if the woman did not regret her decision even when she was not sure if the ending for her was happiness or not, should we not even hold on to our decision more tightly when we know our ending?

unlike the woman, we need not question ourselves whether we are fortunate or not to choose this path of walking with the Lord. because we know the ending. because even when we became like this, He still let us stay by His side. that, is also a form of happiness.

note: this is the best i could recall of this post. i had written this before, but due to the server change, all data (blog posts, comments, pictures as well as my main site) from 12 & 13 october were wiped out. i felt i wrote better the first time round, since i knew what i wanted to write instead of doing the recalling like now. i'm sorry if this post sounds like crap.