About Christianity

if you have lived for a certain number of years, you will have things that you regret. generally regret is separated into 2 categories, regret that you did something, or regret you did not do anything. a regret, i would take it as something which had already happened and that which cannot be turned back. example, hurting a person, not studying hard, commit a crime, did not appreciate someone.

me too, have my own regrets. i have already told myself that i will not do things that will make me regret. of course that is a near impossible achievement. well maybe at least i can try. what regrets do i have? quite a few. i made stupid mistakes, and did stupid things. well things a usual teenager would do. i was an idiot last time. i guess everybody is at one point of time or another.

luckily, many of our regrets are quite 'little'. as in, nobody really died, there are no long-term effects that will result in a dramatic turnover of our life for most of us. yes, it did affect us, maybe for a short while, maybe for a long while, maybe forever. maybe it is a big impact. but most of it, well i take it as decisions made up to the point of age 21, since i am 21 this year, most of it do not have that big of an impact to completely change us. meaning? life goes on, maybe with a few hurts here and there. no big deal. i dealt with it, at the expense of many sleepless nights and many moody days.

so i can say our regrets up to age 21 for most of us do not significantly affect us once a few years passed by. maybe we became more mellow, more cheerful, more able to hide and handle pain, whatever. everyone got changed, a little i guess. but there is another kind of regret that will happen to many of us, a regret that will affect us forever, one that we can never get over with, and that will happen when we die, or after we die. i'm sure you guessed it. this is a christian blog, you should know what to expect.

yes, if we end up in hell, there will be regret forever. reason 1, eternal pain and suffering. not 1 year, 10 years, 100 years, 1000 years. forever. no end to time. no limit. imagine being burn by fire forever. no rest, no peace, no relief. regret forever. what can we do then? nothing. you are dead, and you are gone, if you end up in hell. i dont know if you believe in the concept of hell. i do not have proof. but religion is about faith. i have not seen hell, not felt it, not heard it. but i believe it. i believe it exist and believe that i am not insane enough to want to go there.

i dont want to regret. do you? if you dont, be a good christian. as in, follow the way of Christ Jesus. do what He tell you to. repent of your sins, every single one of them. if you are not a christian, be a christian. i know it is weird to just join any religion. try to talk to your christian friends about it. dont regret forever because of the few years you spend here. instead, celebrate forever because of the life you spend here. it is only a short while. dont regret.

to hide the mask we are wearing, we put on another mask. how true it is. this is not my own idea, i found it as the lyrics to one of the songs in my playlist. i like the phrase, and think it is true, and so i also put it as my msn nick.

we wear masks everyday. why? haix i have the habit of asking questions and answering them on my own. in any case, we all know it is because we don't want others to know our real-self, our weakness and our ugliness. everyone of us has a side we don't want people to know, a weakness we don't want others to know.

we wear a mask and we go out. maybe to this person we show this mask, and to another we show another mask. maybe we are really feeling inferior on the inside, but on the appearance we put on the mask of 'superiority'. we act as if we don't feel inferior, so that we can cover up our true-self. maybe we do not intend to lie, but we sub-consiously, do that, without us knowing. and maybe to keep the sense of superiority intact, we act as if the things that affect us greatly do not even concern us. that will be the second mask. no, this is not all that is, the above example is only one out of many. me? i admit i do that too.

i have many masks too. not that i want it, it just happened. to some people i showed my cruel side, to some i showed my gentle side, to some i show my happy side, and to some i show my selfish side. maybe we change our masks according to who we deal with. maybe it is instinct we have to do that. i don't know. is it wrong? i have no idea. maybe it is just a different side of us, but it is still us. just like the blind men feeling for the elephant, some say it is big, some say it is small. but be it the head or the tail, it still is the elephant. so for us, can i say that be it this mask or that mask, it is still us? i don't know.

whether i am sad or not, i try to show my happy face to people. because i know letting them know my problems doesn't help, and it is not considerate to spoil people's mood for my own problems. i guess many of you are like this, in front of people you put on a smiling face. i don't know if it is real or not, but to me it is natural. maybe i do that too many times, maybe i am born like that. again, i have no idea. in front of people, i have no problem smiling, no need to even act, it is as if i am really happy and carefree. but again, when i am alone, many times i feel moody again. is it emo? no idea. but whatever the case, it do happen. what can we do? the only answer i can come up with is to pray to God.

but whatever the case, as christians we ought to show the genuine side of us which really cares for those around us, in order to touch the lives of others. if you put on a mask which is not you, then you can't do it, because fake feelings don't get across. love is blind, but that only applies to romantic love. maybe we have our ugly side, but it doesn't mean we cannot show our good side to others. the good side is still the real us. of course we are supposed to get rid of the ugly side, to confess our sins and repent from it. but still, everyone has weakness. can we say that because we have an ugly side, that's why we cannot be true to people? not really. we still can. so if you can, show the good and true side of yours to as many as possible. who knows? you might touch their lives, and in turn they may touch yours too.