About Christianity

i am tired. very tired. recently i am busy, or supposed to be. there are a lot of things i have to do, and there are a lot of things which i haven't even touch. well there are the same anyway. in any case, i am busy with my work and my studies.

exams already started. thankfully, or not, my 4 papers are separated into an average of 1 paper a week. on one hand you can say i have more time to study, and on the other hand, i have to study longer. after i came back from work i have to study. tired. maybe because i am moody nowadays. i don't remember getting tired during around this time last year when i have exams and when i have to work too.

regardless, i still have to go on and work. i cannot tell my boss i am tired so there is no need for me to work, and that is a sufficient reason for me to screw up my job. i cannot tell the examiner i am too tired to study because of work, that's why i fail. no. work is work. study is study. examiner and boss don't care. if you fail, there you go. fair enough. i admit that the system in place is correct.

but still, i am tired. it applies to you too i guess. maybe not the same way as i do. everyone of us has a mission in life. God gave us a mission in life. we still have other things to do though. a job to maintain, a family to support, a decent result in our academic life, be a better parent / kid, whatever. can we say, because i am tired from God's work, i can screw up my daily responsibilities? no. can i say i am tired from my daily responsibilities, and that is reason enough to fail what God asked me to do? no. double no, and double win for you. double horror, whatever you call it. i am too tired to come up with new terms, and my eyes started to see double or triple or 4x images. and i still blog instead of study. haix.

ok what can we do? pray. you know, prayer is like an S.O.S hotline. well, we do pray to communicate to God, and of course we don't pray to ask God for things as if He is our genie. so why do i call it S.O.S hotline? well, its something like an emergency hotline isn't it? we are in trouble. we might fail the responsibilites. whatever responsibilities we have, i believe God has placed it under us. so, if we lack the strength, lack the motivation to go on, pray. ask Him to give you strength. i did not say to ask to reduce the burden, i said ask for strength and motivation to go on. He will give you what you need to go on, afterall it is the responsibilites He gave you. ok if you get your girlfriend pregnant before marriage or nonsense like that, well i think you pretty much ask for the burden yourself. well, still a responsibility is a responsibility. you cannot run because you are tired. ask for help. just ask and ask and ask until you are given help. from God of course. please, ask with sincerity and faith.

and after writing this, i am still tired. i thought maybe writing a post will energize me a little. crap now i have to go back and study. get a few hours sleep, go back to work tomorrow. and then i cannot even sleep on the train. the stupid train is so crowded every morning i sometimes have difficulty just to step into the carriage. stand all the way. ok my whining stops here.