About Christianity

'not yet... give up... i know... i still can't give up. because the place i want to go, is in front of me... i still want to move forwards more, and more, and more. i must go to that place. to go to the end of this road. the one who guided me to walk this 'road' was (you)... that's why i must surpass (defeat) you.'

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in this story, one of the most powerful man on earth took in an orphan into his home. this orphan was being chased after by a lot of people who were after his head, and for that reason he was alone, and he hated the world. never believing in anyone, never looking for a place where he belonged. his only aim was to get stronger and stronger, and to kill everyone. to stand at the top of everyone, so that he need not fear for his life anymore. naturally as a kid, no matter how good he was, he was unable to defeat this powerful man, who was stronger than him, who had more fighting experience than him.

but instead of killing this boy, the man took him into his home, and taught him skills to get stronger. he showed him the warmth of a home, and that not all the people on earth were after his life. at that time, he could not adapt, and soon after (which was a few years later) he left that house. like another of his oprhan friend said, 'this can't be helped. keikoku and i are like orphans. to understand the warmth of a family is impossible. because from the moment we were born, we are forced to live in a world that has nothing to do with it (a world where they were constantly being hunted).'

i will cut short the story. the boy later found out that living alone is meaningless. and he had found friends, people he wanted to protect, things he wanted to protect. as was said during his battle with his master and 'brother', the one who guided him to that world of warmth was him. when he had found out the very one who rescued him out of his misery had already walked that very path of loneliness he was rescued from and wanted to take away the things that was precious to him (its complicated. read the story), he realized he had to defeat his master no matter what, to protect what was important to him, and to save this very man who had made his mistake.

there are people like keikoku around the world. maybe not as extreme as him. nevertheless, the path of loneliness, the path where you reject every single human who came to you is a path many people take. as we walk through our lives, sometimes we see people like that. like what was said, it is not that they didn't want to experience warmth, it is just they can't do it. they could not understand it.

but like the master, which later revealed he did all sorts of things to help that boy, we can help as much as we can. maybe, the person will not show any reaction. like keikoku, he did not manage to fit in to his new home. and he ran away. years later, he came back to the one who saved him. because of this one man who tried to help him as best as he could, he could go out and make new friends. his savior had built in the foundation for him. his master may not be able to walk down the road with him, but he had pointed out that road to him.

sometimes, when we help, we may not see results immediately. or maybe we will never be able to see the results. but that does not mean all our efforts are wasted. i am sure, if we want to help someone sincerely, God knows what to do. of course, that is if that help is according to God's plan. i mean you don't sincerely help a person to murder another person right?

so if God asks you to help, even if you don't see the results, it doesn't mean your work is insignificant. we trust in Him to do what He planned. you see, keikoku's master may not be the one who did the last act of saving him from that world of darkness. but he definitely showed keikoku the way. without his help, he would never be able to start off from that road and walk down it. saving a person may not take the effort of only one person. maybe, it is a stage by stage step, with each step involving different people. but as long as we are called to a stage to pull a person out, if we can, then we should do it.

i don't know about you. but i think this is a very well-written story. a story that is applicable to real-life too. of course, real-life may not have that much drama. but in essence it is about the same. i think, even if i am not the one to walk down the road with a person, as much as i want to, if i can at least show him or her, 'here. you see... this is the way you should walk...' then, i think, it will be good too.

someday, moka and i will graduate from this academy. it's also possible that the human and monster worlds will become separated. that's why i decided to make as many happy memories as i can while i'm still here.

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well i guess i did not really say anything much about christianity in my last few posts. haax well i guess i should come back to the main theme of christianity, otherwise i will just stray more and more and this will end up being my personal diary reporting my daily life.

so, the guy, a human was enrolled into a monster academy by mistake, and all his classmates are monsters. but this human mixed in surprisingly well with some of the monsters. and so he got a group of very close friends, or you might say, a clique.

because that was school, he knew school would end one day. the path he took with his best friends was only a short one. one day, everyone would have to go their own routes. they might meet up again, and they might still be friends, but maybe not as close as before. not being together as much as before. so, he decided to enjoy his time, and create happy memories with his friends.

are you like that? i know that i have done that a few times. knowing one day everything will end, so that's why i tried to remember the happy times. if my brain cannot hold that much information, i write them down. well at least i used to. there is no need to tell you how to do it, as you might already have done it. the relationship with humans. many of us have different ways of handling it.

so i thought, today i will talk about the relationship with God. what is your relationship with Him? Him your genie and you the 'master'? God your Lord and you His servant? Father and child? Friend? well, i certainly hope you don't treat Him as a genie. although i sometimes make that mistake, like 'God i screwed up the exams but please let me pass!'

yes, for christians if we die we go to heaven, well obedient christians. you don't expect to sin as you like and expect to go to heaven right? but i thought, in my limited knowledge, understanding and wisdom, the relationship we have with God in heaven and on earth will be somehow different. you do understand right?

yes here we have trials and we live life as a sinful human. a weak human. someone made from dust, or cells. certainly our relationship here is different from when we go to heaven and live life as someone who passed the test. we are doing the test here, enjoying the rewards up above.

like the academy, our life here on earth is also a training ground. the academy prepare life as an adult. the earth prepare life in heaven. our life here on earth, like the academy, is only but for a short time. here, we have friends, we meet people, and we have God. and then, when the time is up, we have to go. where to? i hope heaven for you.

and for our time here, we have all kinds of memories. happy, sad, nice and bad memories. they are inevitable. well you could say life would be boring with only happy memories. only when we experienced ups and downs can we say we live life in a much more fulfilling way. of course, as usual, i am talking about normal ups, normal downs. those who got their family tortured to death in a war zone, those who have incurable disease at a young age.... you know, i guess i really cannot say anything. because i do not understand their pain, hence i am in no position to talk.

so, our walk with God on earth, well i guess it is like a normal relationship in some way. there are those who are disappointed with God, some are happy. some are sad why God did a certain thing, some are frustrated we don't see a way out of our life's mess...etc. basically, every single emotion you felt towards a human can be the same emotions you feel towards God. some even hate God. and i know people like that.

we keep the happy memories we have with others deep in our hearts. do we do that with God? i thought you should, although again i myself don't do it. well at least see what i have to say...hahax. God is like our friend too, and we walk with Him. just that we cannot see Him. but He is always there.

if we have a deep relationship with Him, i suppose we will feel all kinds of emotions too. so, we would have happy memories. happy memories with friends are important and we treasure them. what about happy memories with God? we should treasure them more right? i don't really have many happy memories with God, or maybe i did not carefully keep them in my hearts.

but in a relationship, memories are important. they are proof that you once walked with a person. that you once laughed with a person, cried for a person, angry at a person, frustrated at a person...etc. the same too. what is your proof with your relationship with God? not the Bible knowledge you have gathered. not the miracles you have experienced. not the prayers you did. i think these are all superficial. memories - they are the proof.

your walk here with God is short. and then you either go to heaven or go to hell. regardless it will be a different kind of relationship, i think. so, while you are here in this academy, before you graduate, collect as many happy memories as you can. and to do that, you need to build a close relationship with Him. and then one day if you are in heaven, i hope, you can take out all these happy memories and smile at them. because they are proof of that time you have with God, the time which although could never return back, will always remain in your heart.

i wish you all the best in collecting as many happy memories with your friends and God as possible. so that this walk in life will always remain in your heart and bring a smile to your face. time may continue to run towards eternity, but this frozen, special time will never decay (i don't suppose you will have memory decay in heaven, or when you write it down in a dairy on earth).